Blaming God
Two years ago I had to lay down one on one ministering sessions because I became too unwell. God had given me a promise earlier (and confirmed it through many other people) that He would heal me of every ailment I suffered. Over the last six years as time moved on I began to have more and more things go wrong with my health, with the last three years becoming very hard to live a normal life. During this time when feeling very discouraged and full of doubt and loss of hope the Holy Spirit would always come through and give me a new revelation and reason why I had not yet received my healing. I also got told that I would receive healing and a second infilling of the Holy Spirit into my soul when the Lord had finished showing me all the blockages and unyielded areas in my life that prevented me from receiving all He had for me. These special times of receiving keys and revelations helped immensely to uplift and support me through a very tough time but I had recently come to a place where I said to God ‘No more’. I told Him that although I had loved the revelations and keys I was feeling so discouraged because although they were all very awesome none of them had yet helped me in my health. I felt as though I was ‘all talked out’. I knew that the reason I hadn’t received my healing was because of the blockages on my end preventing it, but God had also shown me that His timing was another prevalent factor. If you are one waiting and waiting for the promises of God to come to pass you will understand how hard the waiting can be. With each new revelation I would always hope that this was the last one and that the waiting was over and I would receive His healing but alas it never was. I had literally come to a place where receiving yet another key (with no results) was too much for me. I needed results and needed God to fulfil His promises to me! If you can imagine a donkey chasing a carrot on a piece of string for years and years never being able to reach it, that is how I felt.
Three weeks after telling God this, I was feeling absolutely low and discouraged and I hadn’t felt or heard from Him at all in this time. I really needed His encouragement and for Him to give me hope again. Whoops - I had previously told Him I didn’t want His keys and revelations anymore (because they felt to me like false hope), but of course were not false hope, and instead were stepping stones to my victory. I realised in that moment that they really were my lifeline, and not only that the lifeline of many others. I did need them and when I wasn’t receiving them it felt like all hope had been taken away. I repented and told Him I was sorry and that I really needed to hear His revelations and words of hope again. Another week went by and still nothing when a friend rang to ask me to pray over the phone with her about injustices that had happened to her Grandmother and another friend of hers. The word injustice according to Wikipedia is ‘a quality relating to unfairness or undeserved outcomes’. After we prayed we sat and waited on the Holy Spirit and this is what He showed me: - Every action we make has consequences – this can be good or bad. Sometimes bad things happen to us as a consequence of sinful choices in our own lives, or even because of the choices our ancestors have made that have been passed down the generational line. The Bible tells us also that we will suffer affliction as a result of following Jesus. Other times we can be treated unjustly through no fault of our own and in these cases it really isn’t fair. He spoke as these revelations were being shown to me, “You need to forgive God for the things that aren’t fair because He didn’t stop them or intervene in anyway.” I told my friend what I heard and she said “I don’t need to repent of that as I don’t blame God for anything. I look only for the blockages and the reasons why I am not receiving.” Her answer surprised me and in that moment I was convicted. I was blaming God for taking so long with my healing. I was disappointed in Him and really quite hurt and very annoyed with Him. I spoke out loud to God and said “Why don’t you stop the injustices where things that are not fair then? He replied, “Sometimes things have to be worked out. It is in the working out that the revelations, keys and healing can come. I would never withhold healing or blessing without a cause or good reason because I am good!”
The word blame according to Dictionary.com is ‘To hold accountable for, and disapprove because of, some error, mistake’. Merriam Webster says the definition of blame is ‘To say or think that a person or thing is responsible for something bad that has happened’. I was holding God responsible and in essence claiming He was in error, or making a mistake. God never makes errors, nor does He make mistakes. I repented for blaming God and my friend and I ended our phone call. When I hung up the phone the Holy Spirit continued. This is what I believe I heard Him say: If you blame God for your misfortunes you are complaining against Him and the consequences are that you open yourself up to the destroyer. Nor complain, as some of them also complained, and were destroyed by the destroyer (1 Corinthians 10:10, NKJV). Although injustices and bad things may happen and God does not stop them you should never hold Him accountable by blaming Him. Your own healing has been prolonged because you have been complaining against God. Being disappointed in Me is the same as blaming Me. Being disappointed you are not healed is not the same as being disappointed in Me. When you first met Me you witnessed My power and knew I held the power to help you. You believe I have withheld that power from you and cannot understand why you haven’t received it for yourself yet. Although I have taught you about the blockages and revealed many things to you, you became impatient. Waiting is hard. I told you My timing was pertinent to your healing. My timing is perfect. You got sick of the waiting. You are human and I understand this, especially when you are suffering. Instead of continuing to trust you entered into blaming and being disappointed in Me. Many of My children have entered into this. It is time for them to repent. It is okay to be sad or disappointed that you haven’t received My healing but it is not okay to hold me accountable as this is insinuating I have made a mistake.” I spoke, “But Lord you have told me in the past that your timing is pertinent to my healing, how do I not blame you when you hold all the control, especially when each day I am suffering?” He spoke, “Acceptance. What did Job do? He accepted that I was God the Potter and he was the clay. He said ‘Who am I to question you’? You are my creation and you have to come to a place where you accept that I am God and that I am in control and that I do things My way and not the way of man. There are things in life that cause hurt, sorrow, grief and pain – but you cannot blame Me. Acceptance – realising I am God and I do not change. Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever (Hebrews 13:8, KJV). I do not do things in order to punish or destroy, I do what I do to make things better. Everything I do is for good. My justice system is good. I am fair. Good and upright is the LORD; Therefore He teaches sinners in the way. The humble He guides in justice, And the humble He teaches His way. All the paths of the LORD are mercy and truth, To such as keep His covenant and His testimonies. For Your name’s sake, O LORD, Pardon my iniquity, for it is great (Psalm 25:8-11, NKJV).
The LORD is merciful and gracious, Slow to anger, and abounding in mercy. He will not always strive with us, Nor will He keep His anger forever. He has not dealt with us according to our sins, Nor punished us according to our iniquities (Psalm 103:8-10, NKJV). If things in life are unfair then trust Me to use them and turn them to good. How you view Me is holding you back. Ask Me to show you Me through My eyes rather than how you see Me through your eyes. Things are about to change for you. You will become one of my greatest advocates because I am going to allow you to see Me through My eyes. This will give you wisdom, revelation and understanding into My ways and why I do things the way I do. Your new Ministry is ‘seeing through Gods eyes and from Gods perspective’. My ways are not your ways but I want to show you My ways and you will see My ways are good. You will see through the eyes of God and you will think through the mind of Christ. Yes my daughter things are about to change for you.”
(PRAYER) – “In Jesus name I repent for how I have handled injustices. I repent for believing I have been dealt with unfairly when it was mine or my ancestor’s choices that meant negative consequences. In doing this I was complaining against Gods law. I am sorry for the blame I put on You for all injustices and negative things that have happened in my life. I repent for being offended at You and for holding unforgiveness toward You. I forgive You for the times You never stopped or intervened in the things that weren’t fair. Blaming You and being disappointed in You is complaining against God and insinuating that You have made an error. You are God and You do not make mistakes and You are never wrong. You are good and You are fair. I ask that You would show me ‘You’ through Your eyes rather than how I see You through my eyes. I speak to the destroyer and command you to leave me, my life and circumstances now in the name and power of Jesus Christ. Thank You Lord Jesus, Amen.”
By Tania Francis